hi guys and gals... this is hard to do

Hi. I am an autistic 19 year old who has one year left in high school, the day I decided to dress nicely everyday is the day everyone starts to notice me, mostly those WAY too young for me, and the ones who are my age.. almost never see me in that light, some for being too long of a friend, or stupidly.. because I'm autistic. (their words, not mine)

I commonly second guess myself with this stuff because of two things
1) because I'm autistic.. i suck at reading signs
2) I had people I crushed on say my autism isn't worth the work.

so Its stupid dealing with prejudice. I've always learned to do small things, but frankly I have trouble identifying how small to go. and worry myself to find out if they have a problem with my Developmental disorder

I've had one relationship that lasted two years... she cheated on me.. twice... so I really doubt myself and fear to make the first step...

I had surgery to help me breathe easier (I rather not go into that) and my confidence has risen sharply.. I just hope to keep an eye on my forwardness

I hope to hear from everyone.. and thnks for saying hi if you do.