So, I have a tendency to get insecure with my boyfriend. I worry that he's not happy, I'm not enough for him, etc. Recently we got into a bit of a disagreement. He won't put a relationship status on facebook. He says 'I never had one before I met you, I don't feel like I need to publicize my relationship status on there, my family knows, my friends and people that I hang out with know, I would never deny our relationship to anyone. why should I have to put my relationship status up there, because everyone else does? No matter who I'm with or if I'm alone with my right hand, I just don't want that up there like that' And, I really understand that part, I mean I do feel like it's more of everyone else is doing it, why not us? I know he's great to me, I told him about how I get upset that maybe he's not happy with me, etc and he told me that he never wants me to feel that, that he may not say it everyday but he's so happy, happier than he can ever remember, i'm the one person in the world he feels most comfortable with over anyone, if he broke his arms i'd be the one wiping his ass. I also told him that I get scared because things are so good with us, the bad has to come soon right? He told me that his relationships never go bad ... I was a little confused, but he said you've been my only relationship (which is true, i'm the only girl he's dated), but after we had that talk, he told me that what I said has been in his mind. He grew with that mentality you don't marry someone you're dating when you're 20...We talked it out though, I basically said yes if we got married right now, I agree but if we stay together and in 5 or 6 years, we're happy, why wouldn't we? We'd be older, we'd both mature. He agreed, he said it was still going to bother him a little (which I understand, and I completely agree) but he said this wasn't worth losing me. The other day, I got extremely down about my looks the other day, I didn't feel sexy or cute or beautiful anything...and I told him, he wants me to tell him this stuff, and he was just asking what he could do to help? he says he wishes i saw what he sees. Another thing bugging me, which probably shouldn't, is I know he looks at these two girls from his past facebooks. One he just had sex with, and the other, he cared about...I read an old email from waaay before we started dating, between him and one of their friends (how he met her) saying no other girls at his school compared to her...And if he looks at the girl he ****ed, I get scared...she has bigger boobs than me, does he wish i had that? does he still want to **** her? and with the other girl, it's like...well, does he still care about her? does he miss her? And, I know this shouldn't bother me because I facebook surf too...I've been on guys from my past pages...But it's like if this situation were reversed, I would be like you're nuts...just cause I look at other guys, it doesn't change how I feel about you or our relationship, I don't regret a thing with him...but with that actual situation, I just don't feel that way, I just get scared...he's so great to me, despite this all, i know we're good together...if i ever want to talk about anything, he listens, if i want to laugh, he makes me.
I just want a guy's perspective on all of this, whether it's fishy or I'm just overreacting...
