Alright, Im honstly doing this mostly to vent (really have no one to talk about this with), but if anyone has any helpful advice I'd love to hear it.
Alright, ive been dating my girlfriend for about 3 and a 1/2 years. Met my senior year in high school and "fell in love." Since then we have had our good times and of course the bad times. She has broke up with me twice (once about a year after we were going out and second time about 9 months ago) Both times we separated for about a month and then worked our way back together. Currently we are going through a small rough patch. I graduated from College last year had haven't been able to find a job in my field yet, so right now I have a part time job at Home Depot and a lot of free time. She on the other hand just started college and has a lot on her plate, including her own part time job and an internship. We dont see each other that much (1-2 a week down from 3-4 times are usual) Also we dont live to together yet (she still lives at home) And her parents are pressuring us to marry before we move in together. This is starting to stress me out.
Then I met this other girl. Call her "Amy." She works at the Depot with me and ironically enough we were in 5th grade together about 12 years ago, then i moved and haven't seen her till I started at the store 2 years ago. Shes not someone who I would usually be "attracted" to. In fact I never really took notice of her till a few months ago when we had to work on a project together. We became fast friends, like good friends. We often go to the bar after work just to cool down and talk about out problems. Ive meet a few of her other friends and we often just hang out now.
Now here is the "twist" after awhile when we got closer in our friendship, she told me that she is in fact bi-sexual and leaner closer to being a lesbian. She hasn't been with a guy in 5 years. Now usually that would turn off most normal guys? Well not for me, suddenly ive been finding myself liking her more and more. Shes just an awesome girl, a few nights ago we went to the bar, then we drove around town a little while looking at our old houses and school, i have never felt more relaxed with anyone else girl or guy. I ended up sleeping over her house that night (on the couch and not the first time), we have never had any intimate moments but she does tell me things she has never told anyone before. Sometimes I think she feels the way I do,but then she will get mad at people at work who make fun of us, saying we are "dating" (cause we hang out a lot). This hurts my feelings, even though when people ask me about us, I tell them its strictly platonic.
Now I dont know what to do or what im doing anymore.
Do I tell my girlfriend i have feelings for another girl?
Do tell "Amy" I have feelings for her?
Do you think she would ever reciprocate those feelings?
thanks all for taking the time to read my issues.
