please help me get over him playing with my heart like that
ok so 6 weeks isnt long enough to know but I really thought he felt something for me, all the little looks, the sexual innuendo, the laughter...when it was time for me to leave he hugged me and I thought I'd fall apart there and then. I said please persuade me to stay and he said "please stay". I had to leave, I didnt have a choice (visa, plane tickets etc) but if I'd thought he meant it I wouldve stayed.
Now after a couple of emails, he's ignored my last message. I ended it with "and I miss you all the time" because I thought that would show him I was really intreested in him and not just playing a game. Seems like I was taken for a fool though and I'm breaking my heart over it. I know everyone says this but I feel like I'll never meet anyone who makes me laugh so much, makes me that horny, or that happy ever again.
The harsh truth would be easier than the pathetic way I'm still prepared to hold out hope for him even though I know really that I'm deluding myself.
I'm not a kid btw - I'm 40! old enough to know better, but still don't, apparently.....