Feeling responsible... can't shake the feeling.

People: I'm NOT A TROLL and the reason why I don't respond sometimes is because sometimes there's nothing to respond to. I have many problems and I need help.

I wake up and go to bed literally feeling guilty and responsible for why people don't smile or laugh or be energetic. I spend my whole day stuck in my house reading books and watching tv. I have a deformity and it makes it hard to go anywhere for I'm ALWAYS STARED AT and it hurts my feelings.

I look in the mirror and see a beautiful girl. It doesn't make any sense to me. I have a very square jaw and it's short (clamped) and I have a small portion of cheeks and big facial features.

People copy my hairstyle and itvmakes me feel like I'm being singled out and that they're making fun of me by copying my hairstyle.

I firmly believe that everyone including you-- could see my flawed deformed face in the womb and that when the babies came out of the womb they cry because of seeing my face.

I'm afraid that everyone's going to gang up on me when I'm least expecting it. I feel like people can't stand me because of the way I look. I feel responsible and guilty because I'm deformed.

You will forever be presumed a TROLL unless you reply. Yes, there is a reply.

... and you clearly need "help" like professional help not forum help. You're 19 and you wanted to nail a man 30yrs your senior, there's something mentally unsound there.

If ur not a troll. Give me pm....ya

... I don't get it.

If you have these problems & you aren't a TROLL.

Then get off your computer & find some professional help for these problems you have. Nobody here is that qualified to help you, plus you need face to face interaction with a professional, not over the computer.