Soloist

I was with a guy for 2 years. He said he ws nvr in a relationship that long.
When he ws 8 yrs old his mom started drugs. He and his brother went to live with their dad.
Dad never had steady relationship, bounced around from woman to woman.
At 12 he was sent to juvie for 5 years at 17 back with dad until 18.
18 in and out of jail. Many woman just for place to stay. At 21 committed murder.
Served 12 year sentence. At 33 back to dads house until together. Meets woman and her 6 kids, 3 years later at 36.
Gets married and within year all children removed from home, wife cheated, and he in and out of jail and on crack.
I meet him at age 38... Wife in jail. No contact with each other over 5 years. Living at home with his dad.
At 39 already living together a year..... Ups and downs. break ups and make ups........
He is a Pisces and I am a Gemini.
He always felt he ws alone and always kept feelings and emotions to himself. In our relationship he called himself Soloist...
He did what he wanted when he wanted. He didnt communicate. He only had 2 friends ( Inmate Buddies) Hated his mother
Believed every thing his dumb ass daddy says and neve made a decision and followed through.
By 40 He seemed happy... Communication still terrible. Still sneaky with emotions. Still not trusting me. Sex ws terrible. Always called me Ugly Bitch when we argued. However he never cheated or hit me. i just got tired of being called UGLY Bitch...
Why live here? Why eat my food? Why keep looking at ____________? He would say " I wouldnt be here if i didnt want too"
He never ever told me I Love you...... Never... I told him a few times......... He would tell his homeboy luv ya man when they hung up the phone or were leaving after a visit, But he never told me... ever
Finally put him out 11/16/2010--------
--He had no idea that was coming and was shocked ------------- As of today -------
2/21/2011--------------
No Contact....... No phone calles, emails, text, visits..........
I cry daily and miss him dearly... I know he loved me.
He just had alot of issues preventing him from expressing emotions.
I guess since age 8 he has had trust issues with woman.
In jail i guess he learned Defense mechanism to survive.
I dont know.......
I do want him back. What should i do

Lol

How anyone could be involved with someone like that, and expect them to act like a normal human being is beyond me. I think you should seek professional help. Seriously.

Wow, just... WOW.

wow is this a TUPAC song or something? Do you have very low self esteem to want a man with such a colorful background?
You are not afraid he might kill you by accident? Or you don't think he's dangerous enough?
I mean, he even labeled himself properly....why are you tampering with him?
I guess everyone has a perfect match....no one should judge. Just understand that he won't be around long enough,
as he loves prison. He must have some good friends there.