I'm in love with one of my best friends, I have been for 3 or 4 years now. I really want to tell her how I feel, but I'm not sure how or if I even should. It's geting to the point where it's hard to be around her because I want to tell her so badly. It's also hard because I'm afraid it will start showing to her and everyone else. I have told her in the past that I have feelings for her, well actually not exactly. (This was probably not my brightest idea but...) we had been drinking at her christmas party 3 years ago, everyone left and we talked for hours. I told her I had something I wanted to tell her, but instead of saying anything I leaned in and kissed her. She didn't back away, even seemed receptive to it, and said "wow I didnt expect that, let me think about it for awhile". So we went on talking about other things and we fell asleep in the same bed. I woke up and she wasnt in the room, so i went upstairs and found her sitting on the couch. I sat down and said good morning, we talked for a minute, and then the subject came up. She said she had never really thought of us like that before but after sleeping on the thought, the idea sounded pretty good to her. She and I we're both afraid it would ruin our friendship though, so we decided to think on it awhile longer. Eventually we decided not to persue it because of our friendship. Since then, both she and I have been in serious relationships, both ending within the past 7 months. My feelings are getting stronger for her and I feel like I want and need to say something before another relationship comes along. I'm still afraid of screwing up our friendship, but I'm also afraid that if I don't tell her how I feel, that I might regret it forever and miss out on something amazing. Pleeaasseee help me, I need a womans point of view.
