Hello,
For the record I am a 20 year old male and my girlfriend is 19. My girlfriend and I have been dating for about 5 years now. A few weeks ago, everything was fine.. we were not fighting, just being our happy selves. Then, out of the blue one night, she asked for space. It has been about four weeks now and she still wants her time. Not only that, but we have broken up for the time being. As much as this hurt, I agreed to the break-up but I have found myself hurting every day. I went on other forums reading how people dealt with this and I realize now that this is more of a healthy situation then the way I am looking at it. I know she still loves me and I love her to death, but I feel so confused.
I do what she wants, be myself and be happy..but it's so hard to do when she is in the other room next to me. I do leave the house occasionally for food or what not and I still ask her if she wants anything while I'm out. I have lied to her in the past about certain things and she has told me that she doesn't want to be with me because of it. I feel so guilty and such a fool for doing what I did. I didn't cheat, but just lied about the obvious. I am giving her her time and I have seen that doing so has made her feel a little bit closer to me. I get a hug every now and then and it lights up my world, but I just miss her company.
I feel like this is my fault because we fought so much over the stupidest things which I started 99.9% of the time. We spent ALL of our time together and I think that was also a factor as to why she needed her space. I still find myself trying to pick a fight with her but I tell myself not to. I am disgusted with myself because I feel I am a different person than I was before. Over these past few weeks though, I know that I have found my old self again. I was always happy and laughing until I turned into such a .. well.. prick. I just want to know if I am going about this the right way? I don't want to lose her, she is my everything ... my better half for that matter! I just want the love of my life back.
- Confused_PR