What to do?

Hey Guys,

Ok well heres my story, I have been with my girlfriend for just over 2 years, im 26 and shes 25. Everything had been going great up until about 2 months ago. In November I was fired from my job and due to some legal issues with my previous employers and a number of other issues it was until the start of March that a final decision was made (I was still being paid). My girlfriend understood everything and was brilliant through everything and we were very much in love. Things started going south in my mind in February after we came back from a trip to Rome. I stopped being the fun loving person I was and started getting down about life and started becoming more insecure and needy. Me doing very little all day and living my life around her. I only have realised it after she broke up with me and started reflecting back on what went wrong. I had been living with my friends but they emigrated in September and had moved back home and we planned to move in together after Christmas, She had purchased allot of stuff for our new place prior to me losing my and was obviously disappointed. I have been looking for employment since I was given the news and have had a number of interviews (just had a final interview today) and would expect to be employed in a number of weeks at the latest.

The sex in the relationship steadily decreased in this period which led me to be more needy and insecure which ultimately in my opinion led to the end of our relationship. She broke up with me on Sunday morning after we had been out for drinks and I got drunk and was an ass. Two weeks previously I had suggested breaking up not because I didn�t love her or want to be with her but because I was unsure if she wanted to be with me. She broke down crying saying she loved me and wanted to be with me forever. I instantly realised I was an idiot (did I mention I was insecure and needy!!) We talked for a bit I explained I loved her and also wanted to be with her etc. My problem was that I tried to communicate with her a bit more but she hated talking about some stuff. When she broke up with me on Sunday she said she loved me more than anything but its not been working the last while, I explained that I loved her I know things haven�t been good but I know we have some good times ahead etc and we left it at that which did bother me. The conversation was literally 10 minutes. A few nice texts have been exchanged since.

My problem is I do love her and I do believe she still loves and wants me, even though its only been 4-5 days since we broke up I have realised over the last few days what an idiot I had become over the last few months and I dont blame her one bit. I have been reading online about what to do etc and everybody says just no contact etc but I genuinely believe that is a load of crap. I understand we can only ever get back together if we both feel the same way again, and I know we might not get back together and I can accept that and have been in good form over the last few days after the initial depression. I also feel the need to do something as she was the most amazing woman ever and I know I will regret it if I don�t do something. I have had a number of girlfriends previously and been in love with some of them but when we broke up I was able to accept that it was never going to work and move on. I plan on sending her an email next week if she hasn�t been in contact since (shes going away with family this weekend) and explaining to her exactly how I feel. I just think I have nothing to lose, I am not scared of being rejected and the biggest fear I have is if I dont do anything I will lose her.

So guys please talk me out of it if you think its a terrible idea and will push her further away!

Thanks