What the HECK is going on in that head of his?
This shall be the last and final thread created discussing about my ex boyfriend. I swear on my highly coveted emergency stash of dark chocolate.
About a....month ago I got in to a serious heated argument with my ex boyfriend. (ok, argument is maybe an understatement. I was more like yelling at him, and he wasn't saying anything. So.....it was more like an all out ambush) Basically, I was just exploding over him being a pervy douche. I hadn't seen him in almost a month, and he popped up and wanted some naughty time. I told him very nicely that I had a boyfriend (I did at the time) and then kinda bragged about it, telling him that my boyfriend and my ex were from the same town and blah blah blah. Then it turned really nasty.
I don't remember exactly what I said, but it might've went like:
"I hate you. I hate myself for EVER falling in love with you, for EVER feeling ANYTHING for you. When I think about how much I've wanted you I get sick to my GODDAMN STOMACH. You're disgusting, you don't care for me, you've NEVER cared for me, all you want is sex sex sex, and you're GROSS. I never want to see your hideous face f*cking AGAIN.'
Or something like that.
And the entire time he was just kinda staring at me, and saying little feeble 'I'm sorry's', and honestly, he kinda looked like he was going to cry at one point. He then left saying he wasn't feeling too well. I didn't see him for like, four weeks, but I was feeling really guilty because he suffers with depression, and he internalizes SO much, and I was afraid I might have drove him over the edge.
So I wrote him an apology, telling him that I was sorry, I was just angry and I didn't mean to be such a bitch. He then messaged me on MSN and said that he got my email, I was cool and we were cool, so no biggy.
We kinda have run in to each other since then, and he's acting really different. (as in, he hasn't made any kind of sexual move or flirt towards me in any way and has been really, dare I say, sweet) he asked me if I wanted to dance with him once, because 'I sometimes dream of dancing with you.'
And then the next day, I asked him why he seems so different and he said, it's because I called him a nasty perv and that really hurt his feelings, so he's trying to prove to me that he's not like that and he really does value me.
Not only did that make me feel like even MORE of a bitchy jerk for going off on him, but it also made me think.
Is he trying to change?
Is he trying to make things better between us?
And if it is, should I give him another go?
