Should I break up with my girlfriend?
Me and my girlfriend have been going out for about one year now, and things have been getting worse and worse. We are both seventeen, in the 11th grade; and I do not feel like I can live without her but I feel it must be done. I broke up with her for the first time ever about one month ago because we went to gym class and I played floor hockey with my friends and she got very, very, very upset with me (apparently I cannot hang out with friends?) She wouldn't talk to me at all, kept screaming at me to go play floor hockey, and just want to me to leave her alone after only ten minutes of me playing floor hockey. It is also not like we never get to see each other, we had other classes together and we talked on the phone on school days for over 5 hours most of the time!
There has been many problems in our relationship, at first when we got back together it was great for about a week until things went downhill again.
In our relationship I do whatever I can for her, that might have been what caused these problems to begin with. I feel like I spoiled her. I deleted all the girls numbers I had in my phone, all the girls that liked me off facebook, I bought her flowers/presents/left her sweet messages on facebook every single time I got on. So many things I did for her and this is why I think she is so overly jealous and clingy to me.
Here are a few things she has done (Only a few, to list them all this would be a novel.)
1.) Just today after school she went to the bathroom. Right next the the bathroom doors were my friends so I talked to them while waiting for her. She comes out, with a sad/mad look on her face and I assume she was sad because I was talking to them...so for 30 minutes she was in one of her moods until I dropped her off at her house.
2.) This last sunday I was working on my car so I could go pick her up (Needed a new starter, had to get the heat shield off which was a bitch and then go to two different stores to get it and put it in) I finally go get her at 2PM so we could see each other and I told her I could be a while so she knew that this could happen. She was mad and upset for 20 minutes; and I finally snapped because I thought it was ridiculous she could be mad over something like that so I yelled at her and told her how stupid it is that I am always blamed for everything and its unfair that everything is always my fault. She asks to get out of the car because she wants to go home, she then starts trying to walk home I tried numerous times to get her into my car she wouldnt, I had to call her parents to pick her up.
3.) She used to get mad at me if I did not talk to her on the phone throughout the entire night, she does not have a phone now because my parents bought her the phone she used and stopped paying for it after we broke up a month ago.
Now I wont bore you with everything she has done, those are just a very small amount of things she has done. She always seems to want to be sad and no matter what happens I always have to apologize and say its my fault. I have tried talking to her about this already and she still says its my fault and wont listen to me.
Here are some faults with her that I hate as well
1.) She is bisexual ( A huge hate)
2.) She has cheated on a girlfriend she had with another girl in a game of truth or dare (she said she was going to break up with her the next day so it doesn't count...wow)
3.) She gets sad and mad too easily and holds being sad the entire day, while if i ever ever get sad or mad I apologize very soon almost directly after it happening
4.) She has gave two guys blowjobs in her life...both at age 14 at truth or dare
5.) She has had sex once in her life with a guy she dated for one day
6.) Her family is crazy; mom was in a mental hospital, dad is a drunk weed smoker, whole family is pretty much insane.
7.) She is kind of stupid (Gets bad grades, while I get a 3.5 without even trying in the honors classes.)
8.) She cannot comprehend things at all
Honestly there are a lot more things about our relationship I am not listing but it is hard to think of them all on the spot. I also know the answer to my own question, I need to break up with her. I just feel so attached to her after a year.
1.) I feel if I break up with her it will be like the one other time I did ( I was depressed, always worrying about what she was doing at any given time)
2.) I am also afraid of what she might do, after only a few days of being apart she cut herself all over and had many cuts on her arms.
I just need some people to tell me...you know. I just want the help to do it. Thanks everyone!