Uhh hi,
I suppose this is an attempt to reach out to just someone. To anyone who cares to listen, because, ATM i don't have many people i can trust... Anyways here is the situation:
There is this girl. A person that i have had feelings towards for over 2 years. The reason we didn't date earlier was due to the fact that she began dating my "best friend." I say that because to me a best friend is someone whom you can disclose everything and anything to and not have them judge or merely disregard. We were the type of friends who hung out a lot. Anyways, So we chilled together all of us for long time having fun and all and while i still had feelings for her I accepted the fact that she was dating him and took a reluctant step back away as it seemed the right thing to do.
They went out with each other for nearly a year and 10 months. It was a unhealthy relationship (He was controlling, and treated her like a slave, etc.) When they finally broke up i confessed my love for her. I told her i would wait for her, to give her time to get over him and tie any loose ends but she thought she was ready and agreed to go out with me. Well, a week together and everything was absolutely amazing. It was the happiest Ive been in my life. But, after that week she began acting strangely. She would get agitated easily, stressed quickly, and was glued to her phone. Just tonight i talked to her about what was wrong and she confessed that she likes me and wants to be with me, but, she still isn't over her ex. She asked me to give her time to sort out her feelings and attend to some issues before we can be together. We are graduating in nearly a week and we have made plans to move out into an apartment during the summer (We have been toying with the decision to move in together for months). She says she will come back and when does she will be emotional ready to have a stable and committed relationship. Because as of yesterday she was still thinking about her ex. I told her that i have waited 2 years and that a little more time wouldn't be that bad. But, i'm just worried. I'm gambling with my happiness and i'm hoping i won't get left out in the cold when it is all said and done.
I know this is more of a stream of conscious rant but I would like to hear your Guy's/Gal's opinions. In the end I know it is her decision, and to force her into an ultimatum would simply shove her away. I know i'm young and inexperience but its hard to picture myself with anyone else. All i want for her is to be happy. But, i think in doing so i am sacrificing my own self-respect.
Thanks,
Deflamare
