28 yrs old, 14 years with him last 3yrs apart now what???
Ok Guys this can get messy so please bare with me. My junior high sweet heart and I have a 4yr boy and 9yr girl. We were together for 14yrs the last five yrs when we had our first child we lived together, We always had a rocky relationship we were kids growing up together in a very adult relationship. Things got hard at the end and we separated that was messy on both ends we did wrong by each other. He knows and has said many times he pushed me to leaving him and he did not know what he had until he was losing us. Over the past three years we have both been with other people. Him between two gurls we can call them "E" and "J" and myself with one guy we can call him "C". Yet we have also tryed off and on to reconnect but all the while still seeing other people which in the end just caused a lot of fights not between us but between him n the other guy "C" I was with up until most recently.
Over the last 3 yrs I have tryed to push forward focus on my goals and maintain this relationship with the "C" but he is always accusing me of still loving my Ex and his insecurities have pushed me away along with the fact that my my JHS has always been on my mind. I guess I grew to love two people. Myself and JHS have been thru very bad times as well. We almost ended up in court becouse him and "C" could not get along and was sent to jail ova a dispute.
JHS has been with "E" for about the 3yrs too, He also started dating "J" while with "E" and eventually left 'E" to leave with "j" that lasted for about 6 months. While this was going on he would talk to me about his situation and I would give advice. Until Him and "C" got into the dispute. I always said it would not last he was going to go back to "E" Life was easy with her. So 6 months later he moved back to "E".
Two months after that "J" says she is Pregnant, JHS Does not want to be apart of her or the baby's life he feels she lyed to him about being on birth countrol. Hse is trying to get him back from "E" she was always scared he would go back to her.
So now JHS starts helping with my kids much more where during the winter h only takes them during the weekend Now in summer his work is seasonal so he is with the kids all week after school. This has us talking more as friends yet again, Has brought us to spending time together and now we talking aout getting back together.
So here is why I need advice. My heart is pulling me towards my past, Which really has never been my past.
I know our love is real we just let time and people get in our way. We where kids and we had a lot of growing up too do.
I know we could push thru this!! I just do not know how to...
P.S "J" is now friends with JHS mother who is mad at him for not supporting "J" and not going back to her when he found out she was Prego. Also although her and I have an ok relationship she does not support us getting back she says we lost respect and can not get that back.
THANK YOU FOR READING SUCH A LONG STORY !! ANY ADVICE WOULD BE A BIG HELP!!
