Confused or Paranoid? Am I about to be f*** over?
Hey, I live in Ireland, but I was born in Ukraine. Every summer I go to Ukraine. So I am going to Ukraine in 4 days. And last summer I met girl which I liked, we went though a lot of things, even things like dangerous people chasing us threatening, we've spent a lot of time together. But not like girlfriend, she's just my good friend ( as I wish or think it is). She had lots of problems with her boyfriend. Last summer she was calling me all the time, so like 40% of summer I spent with her. I usually pay for her for drinks etc.. Since I am from Ireland, i have more money than she or her friends. During winter she asked me: " Who am I to you?" I said " Well I love you as friend, and care about you as well." She said ok. When I asked her same question she said " I don't answer these types of questions online, only face to face". During whole year she had lots of problems with boyfriend, she's now done with him. Then my friend (who lives in Ukraine as well, and now they are nemesis to each other) Said: " Do you talk to her a lot? " I said not really. Kinda too far apart. " He said, well yeah once you arrive, will have money, will get drinks and pay, she will call you then". I thought ok since they both have bad relations, he could've tried to get me to hate her. Then today I asked my other friend (who's her classmate, and is good friends with that 1st friend) and he said to me: " Yeah he was probably right". Before that he said " She really waits for you, talks every day about you". So now I am confused, either I am awaited to get ****** over for whole summer, or is this all just well organized act of 2 friends? Since last summer, I still haven't figured out of realized was she with me only for money or not. I was waiting for summer to go and meet her and friends whole year. That's all I've been thinking about. And now to be honest, I sometimes just want plane I fly in to crash since I literally get split apart into wanting to go, and afraid to go and see the truth. Truth which I have no idea what it is. Help? suggestions? Ideas?
Btw when both of these my friends last summer went off, I was left by myself on street, I called her and asked where she is, she was sleeping. When I said I am just on street they both went somewhere, she said to come to her house, so she dressed and went out to stay with me, we spent few hours talking until those both showed up, then she shouted at them both for being ***** who call me out and then run off leaving myself on street. When I tried to do tests, I told her on phone, I dont have money today, she always says " So what? dont worry we will figure something out" . So I am not sure what's going on, either a lot of backstabbing, blackmailing and bad talk or What?
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