Originally Posted by
OmnicronPercei8
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As always, thank you Wakeup. I know on the outside it seems like I'm hanging tough, but inside, at certain points of the day anyway I just feel dead inside. I am not, repeat NOT suicidal, but i find my mind hoping that I'd get blindsided by a semi on my way home just to end this feeling that I have inside me. I know it will one day be fine, but right now in the midst of my suffering, I can't see that light outside of the tunnel yet. I have really felt at times that I hate my life.
The evenings are much better than my days. After I leave work I can preoccupy my mind with going for long runs, cleaning, or doing other work around the house. School has started back up this week so I can focus my mind on studying and I'm also thinking about buying a new bicycle to get me out of the house more. Finally, I'm looking into some volunteering aspects in my local community.