Anyone else with me here ?
This is more of a rant/Letting off steam i guess, Sorry if it isn't what i should be posting on these forums.....
Ever since my ex breaking up with me 2 months ago or there about, I've been thinking the same old thought 'I need to disappear'.
Not in a suicidal way, But in a way which means me moving a good 300 miles south, And starting a completely fresh new start somewhere new and un-familiar.
I guess maybe i want to become someone, Not just existing, But living my life as i should be at 20. I suffer from Generalized anxiety disorder, And well, Maybe getting out of this small town will give me the peace i need to find who i am again. Although i'm over her, I just feel absolutely smashed into pieces.
I went from having everything, A good job, An amazing relationship, Money, Happiness, Friends, Family, to this. To having nothing. I seriously am at breaking point, 6 months ago i had it all. How can anyone be friends with me ? I have nothing, I am nothing.
I feel as if i haven't achieved anything in my life, What a shame this is ! I could be someone, I have a passion for photography, i love working, I love being someone.
How do you just disappear ?
I have a lot of good friends here, Who have stood by me, and have always been there, I don't want to just ditch them.
Sorry.