I Miss him so much.

I try so hard not to care or think of him or anything at all but then when I'm all by my self and little entertained then his memory comes back to me, his kisses and laugh everything contaminating my soul and I could choose to think of all his flaws and just dislike how negative he is by nature but I'm way to positive so see only the bad.

I just miss him and want him in my arms again.

So do I... and I know exactly that we have NO future with all the lies he told me... but it hurts so much... my stupid heart still loves him so much... my mind screams: "No!", my heart screams "yes"... not that he even wants me back, he still thinks everything is my fault and is just offended when I try to make him see my side too...

I don't know how to manage yet, but perhaps it helps you to know you're not alone with how you feel...

Big hug
Kyeema