Mixed emotions....don't know how to handle this!
My hubby of 20 yrs has changed over the years, we did little growing up together because the kids came at a early time in our life, we are both 45 but many people think I am in my 20's (LOL). He focus his attention on his friends and family and the one person (me) who is always by side through thick and thin, has been neglected. He does speak highly and brag about me, but the pretty picture he paints to everyone is not what its cracked up to be. I ran into someone in January of this year who by chance we were talking and I realized he knows my older brother. I saw him again in February when my brother came into town and I had a dinner at my house. A month ago, he called me and we were talking and the funny thing I knew even though he was beating around the bushes I knew he was referring to me when he said he had a weird dream. I have not crossed that white line and don't think I will but what bothers me is how I feel around this person is what I should be feeling with my husband although I have tried telling him we need time with each other to reconnect and he feels that there is not a problem. Although this guy is almost half my age, I am smiling and laughing again. I know he lives with someone even though it was hard for him to come out and say it and to admit the kind of relationship he is in. He went out of town to a close family member funeral and I saw that his girl left a message on his fb page on how she misses him, it makes me wonder what there relationship status is and whether I want to be a third wheel. While he's been away he text me and call me and it makes me wonder is he interested in me or my finance? Hubby went away on vacation by himself and I'm now having mixed emotions on whether i need to move on or try to push further to get my hubby to fix things...... I am a beautiful woman which one would say dammmn why would he throw away such a pretty flower that most men would envy him for?
