Contemplating leaving my child's father
My boyfriend and I have been together 3 years almost . We have an 18 month old son. I feel like I may be settling for this relationship now and keeping it together for my son's sake, so he has a mommy and daddy around always. I love my boyfriend. I just worry now that Im not IN love with him anymore. We've been through so much the past 3 years. Lots of fighting, now we dont fight as much anymore, but we still do fight here and there. Its more just nagging at each other now.We dont have much sex, never have really and when we do I always have this guillty feeling bc i dont enjoy it (never really have). When he touches me I pull away all the time, I get goosebumps and dont want to be touched by him. I feel awful i feel all these feelings bc i do love him. I dont know what my problem is. I know he loves me and isnt thinking about breaking up at all. Weve been talking marriage and buying a house lately. Marriage part is whats scaring me bc im not sure if i ieven wanna be with him. I feel like im using him and dont wnat to do that either. Im a stay at home mom (its what he wants and supportss) and he pays for everything, so if i left Id have nothing and I know it would be hard but i know i could get on my feet. Id just have to work my butt off. I havent broke up with him bc I dont want to make any crazy drastic decision and regret it later. I want to be sure for my sons sake. any advice? sorry so confusing if u have questions, jus ask.