I love girls. I worship them and the ground they walk on. heres my problem
When I like I girl try to get to know them. I try to play it safe, I try not to flirt, but no matter what I say the girl can tell I like her and will think I'm flirting. It goes down hill from there. The girl will either compleatly dismiss me then or pretend she doesn't notice I'm flirting with her. Somtimes I think I'm doing well and I'll ask the girl out. Some common responses are "loser" "get a life" "I'm not allowed to have a boyfreind" "I don't have a phone" "lets just be freinds". This frustrated me to the point of giving up. Once I've given up a girl who I barely know will find her way TO ME and flirt with me. By that time I'm so lonely and frustrated that I allmost scream yes- but I don't know what kind of person this girl is and sure enough, 99% of the time she's a pyscho (literally they are mentally ill).
I feel powerless to have any effect on which girl I go out with. I'm so lonely that I actually considered asking out a retarded girl once.... I feel like such a failure- worse yet I feel shallow and sexist for asking out so many girls, but I'm so lonely it hurts. What's wrong with me? I'm not ugly, my platonic female friends think I'm the greatest thing since sliced bread. What am I doing wrong? I think the only way I can break from this cycle of pyschotic girlfreinds is to find a girl in the real world instead of waiting for one to come to me. I'm so lonely.
