umm... im sarah... soharu is my writing name. im kind of shy... and im told i apologize too much. i just dont like it when people hate me... even if theyre not my friend. it makes me sad. i tend to see things differently than most people, and like to believe everyone has a good excuse for actions. i have friends, but am too shy to even talk to boys. i dont know why... i think its because guys have always kind of been... mean to me. its not that i dont do anything wrong... i just... because of my personality im terrified of being rejected, and so i dont do anything. i know its stupid... but ive had boys tell me not to talk to them, and they push me away. ive never told my friends that... but ive always just wanted somebody to tell me im important to them. because i dont believe myself. i can be very silly sometimes, and silly is a weird general kiddish term, i get kind of hyper sometimes. :# i dont try to though. i like to talk to people, i dont get to do that very often. i used to not talk at all, because i didnt know how to talk to people. what to say. its a sad story, but we all have one dont we? everybody has a past, a background, and some people cant leave it behind. if youre ever feeling sad, talk to me. ill send you a picture, i draw pictures for people when they feel sad. they smile... and thats all i need. i like to make people smile. even if im hurting on the inside.
