Hi,
I am 21 years old and I have never had a girlfriend (yes I am a virgin :horror: ).
I honestly don't know why. I am well educated, decent looking, sociable enough and outgoing, but I am lost when it comes to girls. I have no idea what they're looking for, what they want or how to give it to them. When I talk to girls I get sensory overload or some shit and go red in the face and stutter my words and say stupid shit and basically look like a massive MASSIVE tool. I think I also fear girls to some extent, and fear rejection. I think the best explanation for this is because my mother didn't love me as a child because she thought I was too ugly *gasp* (she was ****ed up too) so I didn't associate much with her and daddy was too busy protecting me from her. I'm sure at that stage he didn't realise doing that would mean I'd turn out a bit sexually... "backward". **** I have lost so much not having a female role model in my childhood, and I fear I will never learn that innate ability most children unconsciously learn from their mothers how to win over women and sweep them of their feet :( . I just don't have any confidence in my abilities, my looks or my tuning capabilities whatsoever. Dang fark. :sad2:
Is there hope, or am I a lost cause?
Please help
love
Adam
