trust issues when she has done nothing wrong?
Alright, I've been through a lot of harsh relationships with some shitty girlfriends. Who have either cheated on me or just stabbed me in the back for some reason or another. Though now I'm in a relationship with a girl who is absolutely amazing, she makes me so happy, we've been seeing each other for 5 months now. I'm a lowly person with no current job (I'm 18 and looking if that makes a difference ^^) though I'm going off to college in less than a month. She's a very genuine girl who has no problems speaking her mind, especially to me (kinda scary when she's mad).
Alright, time to get to the point here. I don't know why, but I've lost some trust in her, somehow. I have no idea how it came about, maybe it's the fact that I've been stuck in a damn house for too long. My car was wrecked and totaled not long ago, so I've been housebound for quite a while. She has no car at the moment (she's kinda young) so she has to get rides to my house my mother goes and gets her since it's too far to walk. So in turn we have not seen much of each other besides texting and talking on the phone. Though that's becoming somewhat farther in between, she does have a social life and school work as well as practice so I give her the benefit of the doubt in that, though when we actually get to talking we can talk for hours on end, four or five without much (if any) awkwardness.
She has really done nothing for me to lose my trust in her, I've been stressed out and I am also an overthinker if that makes a difference. It hurts her because of this, and I'm saddened by the fact that I seemingly cannot trust her even though she has done nothing wrong. It's gotten to the point where a text from a friend jokingly said she was with him and I went overboard which I apologized profusely for. I need to get out more and see people though without a car or any transportation that is nigh impossible without walking.
She told me that she was asked out by another guy, and she didn't want to be a lowlife and just dump him without testing the waters first. I want to trust her, and I've currently put all my trust in her right now, I'm going all in on her right now to make the right decisions for herself. I'm trying so hard, but my thoughts limit me due to past relationships, and being away from her for long periods of time shakes me up.
Am I being too overdramatic? Optimism isn't really one of my strong points. She's also told me that I've changed, and I see what she means. I don't act as spunky as I used to, I've become very self conscious about myself and what I say, like awkwardness with anyone I'm around... and I've kind of lost "me". I think that if I got out more and spent time with my friends that I would find myself again...
Any advice is appreciated.
Thanks
