Hi, I have posted on this forum before but it's been a long time.
I feel like my marriage is in a bad place. Nothing in particular is wrong, we get along fine, have sex, etc. But we have two little kids and I feel completely emotionally estranged from him.
We talk, but there is nothing to talk about apart from mundane life things. We had a huge argument a few years ago and he said some things I can't forgive him for. He seems to not respect me as a person, and only needs me to raise his kids for him. He sort of neglects me emotionally while I do everything I can to make him feel good about himself.
He has a weird habit of putting me down several minutes/ hours after I give him a major compliment-- like he gets a big head or something. On Valentine's Day, he did/ said nothing at all, till later that night I started crying so he ran to the store and bought me a potted plant.
I've never felt a deep desire for him and I often find myself fantasizing about other men. I have even semi-seriously considered having an affair. I'm an attractive woman and men come on to me frequently, and it gets rough when the one at home seems to not appreciate me one bit.
(Don't chew me out please, I know it's bad, but I have never cheated and don't think I would.)
I think I love my husband, but I am not sure. Oh, and we've been married 8 years, together for 10, we are in our very early 30s.
Any advice?