Noob

I am American and was in an 8yr. marriage, to an American woman, that turned out to be a lie, right from the start.

Two years after that, I had emotionally recovered from the affects of my divorce, and what happened in the marriage. Enough to enter in to another engagement that never resulted in a marriage. That relationship lasted four years.

Six months after that, I started a long-distance engagement. Five years later, I am still engaged to that woman.

Which brings me to why I came to this website. During the time of the four-year engagement, I met(online), an online acquaintance of my (ex)fiance. At the time the new online friend(Canadian woman) was engaged to a U.S. Army soldier. Then she was in a relationship with a guy in the U.S. that turned out to be a real jerk. Then she married a guy she had gone to high school with, that I was too pleased with, but supported her decision anyway. Her (ex)husband turned out to be an even bigger jerk. Now she is in a relationship with another Canadian, that is a single father of two kids below 10, and one of them is severely disabled.

During these past ten years, I have kept feelings that have had for her, in a mental 'what if' box. That is, until now. I finally told her. She admitted that she also has had a certain attraction towards me over the years. We recently started talking via Yahoo Messenger's VOIP technology. She said she gets a tingling feeling when we talk/chat on Yahoo Messenger. That really makes me feel good about myself

The problem I am having is, not her mood swings or, how fast or slow, they are. But how I keep from overreacting when she gets in a negative mood.

While she has a boyfriend of one year, and I have a fiance of five years, we still are gravitating towards each other.

Finally, Last night we 'seemingly' got into another argument via Yahoo Messenger, that basically said, the relationship was over. But then I eventually reminded myself that she had said she would talk to me that she would talk to me when she got back from visiting her boyfriend.

I know it may seem foolish to say to her, that I love her after knowing her for ten years. I didn't care who she was pretty much involved with, Now my feelings for her are coming out with a full exhortationl

Now we admitted to each other, how we feel about each other.

But some times she will get in hateful mood swings.