I realize that I've abuse and hurt my wife ,how to get her forgive me?

so i am being honest here
i was going through the worst phase of life and used to drink heavily,my wife tried to stop me from drinking,but i was furious,full of stress and started to abuse her and sometimes beat her
it became my daily routine.
that poor women just took all the abuses,i don't know why but she never called the cops.(she could have done that if she wanted)
wife-beating become a game for me ,until recently when i saw my wife crying alone ,i was drunk on that day too,i saw the fear and agony on my wife's face and it was horrible,i asked myself "what am i doing,relieving stress by drinking and beating my wife ?"
from that day onwards i stopped drinking(it takes a lot of effort) and abuse.
abuse lasted for 2 weeks or so
she still talks to me sometimes ,sleep with me even after so much abuse but she is not what she used to be,she always remain sad and scared ,her great smile is lost forever.I sense that she's withdrawn from me emotionally as a result
i feel very bad for her and for all my wrong doings,i want to change everything,i want that woman back who i used to love.
it was all my fault and my drinking habits
,i will never forgive myself
how to get that wonderful lady back?

please help me someone :sad2:

Jeez. She needs help if she still stays with you and sleeps with you after all that she went through. I don't think there's anything *you* can do, but be a good person from now on. She has to realize for herself that she needs help.

Well hitting a women is never right !
She's grown fierce of you... The drinking ya that'd not gonna help you
Have to get dome kinda hrlp for that and stop hitting her it ain't a game
The only reason she never called the laws is because she loves you that
Damn much so don't take that for granted because that will backfire on
You and you won't want that she's pronouns scared to leave you or scared
To call the cops because she might think you will hurt her ! If you really want
Things to change get help with the drinking stop hitting her think before you dot
Things and do stuff for her take her out to do stuff buy her roses be sweat you
Know win back her love and once you see how easy it will be ya well fall back to
What ya use to be that'd if she wants to give you a chance and obiously she's wanting
Things to change