I was involved in a 2 year long, long distance affair/relationship with a guy I knew practically my whole life. I was married during the duration of our relationship, he knew this, and I broke things off with him because I was tired of living a double life and didn't think I was strong enough to leave my husband. Within days of breaking things off with him I came clean with my husband and we are currently in the process of divorcing. He said he would wait for me, but when I told him I had ended my marriage and wanted to be with him he acted cold and cruel. We haven't really spoken much over this 3 month period but he says that he still loves me and that I was his dream girl. I have laid all my cards out on the table for him and told him I want a future with him. He hasn't said yes he wants a future with me or no he doesn't. So it's basically like he is stringing me along. I am having a hard time moving on from this relationship so I decided to book a flight to where he lives and see if he will meet me. Is this totally crazy to just show up or is it worth one last effort to try to salvage our relationship?