Hi,
I'm new to this forum... I live in a foreign country, in a small town where its really hard to meet new people - everyone knows everyone!
Back in April my boyfriend had gone away for work for 2 weeks - he got drunk and kissed another girl - apparently that was all that happened although that's not what the rumours said.
He told me after a good friend of mine found out - he looked me in the eyes and said he made a mistake it was just a kiss. - i was very hurt but i forgave him.
We had booked a trip to go back home to meet my family in June - we had finished up at work for our holidays - and a few people were leaving so we had a party etc.. he had been acting a bit odd - I looked at his phone and found facebook messages to girls from back where he lives - the messages went back to december - they said i meant nothing to him - and that he was going to go home for a week and **** the brains out of one of these girls - that message was sent 3 days before we were going to visit my family. - I was so hurt and I confronted him - i was embarrassed, humiliated, devastated... - i couldn't face going home alone and having to explain to all my friends and family what happened - let alone the 24 hr flight feeling rubbish - so he came with me and we decided to try and sort it out.
Things were never the same. We regularly argued, I became very insecure - we had a huge row about 3 weeks ago because I found out he went to a party and got drunk and high - and there were photos of him with girls all over facebook - he had said he was going to come home to mine after the party (he said he wasn't staying very long) - but he didn't come home. he apparently fell asleep and then drove back to his.
I went to his and we talked and decided to end it - he then came round to mine the next day and said he didn't want it to be over but we needed to take a few days out to sort out our heads and what direction we were going to go in.. we had arranged to meet on the saturday to talk - and i got a txt saying it was over - I was heartbroken that he could be so cruel to do it in a text - but the outcome was kinda where we were headed.
I have never felt so hurt and used in all my life. The pain and heartache has been unbearable. I have anxiety attacks, I can't eat, I just want to know what I did that made him txt other girls and be such a coward that he couldn't be a man and come and talk to me about his feelings rather than sending me a hurtful heartless txt.
