I Love My Family, But I Love Him
I (19) and my boyfriend (21), have been together for almost two years now, we both understand we haven't completely matured yet, which is obviously okay for our age but we're getting there. That being said, we had a few arguments here and there in the past and I ended up crying. My mom saw me crying and refused to let me see him anymore. We have changed quite a bit since then, it's been 4 months and we realize our mistake but I've tried countless times to ask my mom to let me see him and she goes crazy. She once said "if you we're on your death bed and he was your only medicine I'd tell the doctors to just let you die".
I'm middle eastern so we are all about "reputation" and he is as well, however, I was a le to see him before,... But I can't now. My parents are divorced and were married young so my mom is extra worried, about reputation and me making the same mistakes as my parents. ...
I don't know what to do because this is really stressing the both of us out and we both have more important things to deal with like school and not this stupid crap. It's such a headache to try to sneak a way to see him. It's tearing us apart and I don't want to lose him. What should I do?
Ps. I can't move out, cultural reasons .. Lol