Infactuation Stupidity or something else?
This is an awkward one, & im prepared for a slating. Just lately there have been a few social events organised by work mates usually a pub crawl, I work in a mainly men environment, but in the last year or 2 quite a few women have joined the company, & a small group have started coming out with us for a drink. one of them I have known at work for about 6 months & we have always got on well & to be honest I have started to really like her she is absolutely gorgeous in my eyes, at the last social I noticed her looking at me from the onset & I repaid the compliment & before long we were chatting away & gazing into each others eyes no physical contact at all. Although Id had a few drinks I wasn't really drunk just a bit merry I new she was staying in town & I had to come back the following day so offered to buy her lunch which she agreed & in a moment of madness & I wasn't going say it, but she guessed I had something to say so I told her what I was thinking & said quite simply "I find you very attractive" she didn't say anything but instead gave me a sensual embrace & in my ear said iv got a room with that I just melted. at that point I resisted temptation & left. Now for the bombshell I am 50 (though iv been a lifelong athlete & look much younger) married with 2 kids she is 20 she knows all about me & Iv been completely honest with her at least. Now I know what your all thinking. we didn't meet for lunch the following day a miss understanding in the arrangement meant we missed each other but we were both there. we have seen each other at work since & exchanged a few texts that's all. There are problems in the relationship with my wife & if she found out there would be an explosion. Am I completely bonkers in pursuing this?