Falling Head Over Heels In Love With A Happily Married Woman
Hi everyone.
Im new here, and this is my very first post, and I need your opinion about something going on with me.
This November will mark the 5th anniversary I started getting very heavily into the evangelical Preachings of Kirk Cameron, a fairly new, relatively young Preacher who has been delivering sermons, both televised and in real Churches across the United States, since the year 2000 (by way of his native Los Angeles, California).
In January 2009, coincidentally soon after my maternal grandma (whom I will call Dot and will refer to her as Dot from here on out), soon after Dot died, I discovered, per his official site (revamped earlier this Summer for the 3rd time in that many years) that he has a younger sister named Candace, who, per his official site, is happily married to a retired Pro Hockey player named Val Bure, with whom she has 3 teenagers (a teen daughter, aged 15, a 13-year-old son and a pre-teen son) and lives in Fort Lauderdale, Florida; considering I have relatives who live in Fort Lauderdale via subdivisions such as Sunrise and Davie, I considered, after the discovery, taking a week-long vacation to Fort Lauderdale visiting with my relatives on the side while traveling to every public building in Fort Lauderdale hoping to see Candace in person; instead of doing THAT due to the trip being 8 hours away from me combined with expensive costs, I chose a safer route to meet Candace--via Twitter; earlier this week, Labor Day, marked the 2-year anniversary of my first meeting Candace on Twitter, and though I will admit she and I have had our quarrels, as friends, I wouldnt trade my friendship with Candace for anything else in the world.
Im kind of hesitant to tell Candace how I really do feel about her, because I dont want to ruin my friendship with her via Twitter, along with her 17-year marriage to Val, but at the same time, since January 2009, Ive had quite the infatuation with Candace that has since grown to my falling in love with her--and that makes me feel good, especially when I start having fits of rage regarding things that went wrong for me growing up.
My Intellects are telling me that these feelings I have towards Candace are completely inappropriate, but at the same time, these feelings make me feel good, and give me energy to play Music, like the Guitar, the Dulcimer, the Piano and the Drums (as well as make me Exercise for her) that I otherwise wouldnt have.
I feel like Im at Wits end about these feelings, and dont know how to rid myself of them on my own.
ANY advice on this matter will be GREATLY appreciated.
