No more biscuits in the tin. (UNbearable)
Hello all, i try to explain
I don`t want to bore everyone with al the details,
I have suffered so much abuse, verbal and physical
She was jealous of everything and everyone.
She started to wear the same clothes as me.
We could not watch a movie with her becoming jealous
She wanted to argue all the time about nothing.
Everything i did made it worse
Evertime i said i love her it was treated with suspicion
She then just cut of all contact and its been 3 weeks and all i have heard from her are nasty texts.
The big question is for you all, is why am i so in love with this person?
I was with a woman (NO name!) 3 years. I was happy. I wanted to do whatever i could for her. At the start she was so open and really nice. After 8 months she didn`t want me to talk to any of my friends. She then went through my Facebook and said that i was sleeping with all the `women` friends i had. I told her she was being silly and paranoid (But i didn`t use that word!) She made me delete some of them and i did. When they asked me why they had been deleted i told them and they were very sad for me and told me leave her. I knew it was wrong but for some reason i could not. I put her first and felt that i wasn`t doing enough to prove myself to her. She then sent messages on FB to some of the woman friends i have, she told them that she knew i was sleeping with them. These were old friends of mine who i went to school and university with! (Most have families!) I apologised to all of them and told her that it was enough. She said because i said it over that she must be right about me sleeping with these women! I tried to sit down with her and tell her that the only person i wanted was her. But everything i said just made it more wrong. She told me me she didn`t trust me and left. But every 2 days she would send me a horrible sms, telling me i was weak and i had to do what she wanted if i wanted to be with her. Put her first with everything, including before my daughter. I have no idea why i feel so so let down. I thought i did everything right. I am so careful in relationship after my past. What signals did i send to her that made her feel so insecure and paranoid. I used to send her flowers at work. And she always asked why?? I said i didn`t need a reason. 2 weeks ago i had to go home to the UK because my Father is dying. I sent her a sms telling her because she met my Father once. She replied saying. `I don’t care and you have only gone home to sleep with your friends on Facebook`. Did i miss something? Did i get this so wrong? Because at my age it`s normal, i am not a teenager! I feel really hurt and stupid but part of me wants to show her she was wrong to leave me. Have a nice night and thanks for listening. Take care. Haydn
PS there is so much more..........
Yes i miss her everyday.
