Could she be into me someday?
Okay, so he here's the story. I'm 22 and just started university. The first few weeks were basically drinking and getting to know people with loads of activities aiming for this. I'm from a different city so I knew nobody here. Well there was this very attractive girl in my group but I didn't really pay here any extra attention. Not until I spoke with her for the first time. It was like an instant connection, we got along really, really well. We had so much in common and the first time I had private time with her (sober) we were literally just laughing and laughing. She's the girl I have occasionally fantasized about at nights, a girl I'd want to spend my life with. The problem however is typical: she's already in a relationship.
First it hurt me but I tried being realistic. I was handed a friend card and I was going to take it. Very rarely have I met such people in my life with whom I get along so well. I'm having incredible time with her and she makes my days better. I wasn't going to throw all that a way just because my subconsciousness wanted her all for myself and if I had to settle to being friends to obtain it - so be it. Also, in the looks department she's a solid 9 whereas I'm in the more average category and once again the pessimist inside me screams I'm never going to score girl that hot. I have now known her for a month and been furiously trying to calm my feelings for her - unsuccessfully. I have had crushes before, but this is different. This is by far the strongest I have ever felt for a girl, she's all I seem to be able to think about. It's like I'm trapped, she's so close but at the same time so, so far and I can't and won't do anything because she's in a relationship.
However the first time I ever got a feeling I could stand any chance was last Friday. We were in class trying to contain our laughter but there was much more physical contact than traditionally: for example the good old light girl punches and me helping her play a game on my cellphone that included hand touching. It felt much more intimate. If she wasn't taken I would have definitely considered it flirting. That got me thinking: she's been surprisingly active with me and my other friend despite already having friends here (she spent a year in another major), including willing to come with us to buy me furniture, play soccer and come to parties and clubbing. I don't know if I'm overthinking this, but sometimes I feel like she's aiming for my company in the bigger groups, even when it's just me, her and our other good friend. Of course this doesn't necessarily mean anything since she's definitely the person I get along the best, and vica versa (at least I assume so), but it's still interesting. I have been trying to spot small nuances in her behaviour that might hint something, but have huge troubles separating them for normal friend behaviour. She's living together with her boyfriend and they have been in a relationship for over a year and from what I understand, things are not bad for them. So every time I look it from that aspect, it makes everything feel so fricking distant for me. But then I think about how good we are together and the small glimmer of hope is back on the table. Maybe some day...
Last time I wrote about this situation (different forum though) I was only asking how to get over these feelings and preserve the friendship. Well, I got a few replies that adviced me to not throw my hopes out just yet, things might change. So I'm asking you guys, in this situation, should I keep hoping something might happen in the future or just try to move on? Do I stand a chance? I may not look like Brad Pitt but I can make her laught a lot - that has to count for something, right? What are the cues that I should be looking for, cues that make the difference between good friends and something more than that? I definitely don't want to ruin anything there is between her and her boyfriend but there's always the chance that the relationship doesn't last and that's when I want to be there.
