Help me guys

I need help guys.. I know this guy since I was 14 we meet each other first time with just a look from walking back from different schools.. Few months later he got with a close mate of mine from my school and I was with a guy.. We used to get together and do crazy teenager things together.. me n him both broke up with our partners shortly after few years.. But when he was18 and I was 17 we got back in contact and we both start seeing others but still kept a regular contact n chillies together.. Till a point that me n him had a fair on our partners with each other we was like best friends well we was best friends.. Till to a point that I was falling for him without me knowing.. I'm the type of a girl that coz of my parents I hide my feelings sometimes with hate.. It's something I discovered at age of 24.. Anyways he asked me to hook him up with my best mate it killed me because they will go out n come back so happy but she was cheating on him I didn't get involved because before when his other ex girlfriends cheated on him I would tell him n this time it was different me n him started having sex so I didn't want it to look like I was jealous even Doe I was dying inside.. But anyway because I was hating on him n her n jealousy took over I started seeing his mate to see if he cared? But unfortunately I though he never did the only thing he was doing doubting that me n his mate will get serious because his mate knew about me n him.. So I started to play a game that I didn't even see I was playing the game was proving him wrong.. I started to go crazy to get his best mate to take me serious but because I had feeling for him I kept messing up.. But anyways roomers went round that my best mate is bad mouthing me to his mate that's y he ain't taking me serious.. Also how his the reason y me n my ex broke up.. But anyway I end up hating him so bad because he knew me better any1 we stop talking because I told him I love his mate n his the reason why I can't be with him.. So we fell out.. Then I was doing my best till few weeks ago get with his mate that's still after 3years.. Till I realise I don't give a shit about the mate and I really love my best mate and how I should cum clean n tell him everything I messaged him to meet up n how sorry I was he was understanding n he came to c me.. I was sooo excited that I was driving120 just to c him.. Anyways I've explained everything to him but didn't get to explain fully.. Didn't have the balls.. All I said was I had a dream n how I did u wrong I'm sorry but that's coz I had feelings for u.. N you never took me serious.. N he said I though u didn't take me serious.. I reminded him of the promise we did when we was young like 18 how we get married to each other by age 25 if we didn't find the one.. He started to lough n said his in a relationship with a girl for 3years big he ain't going to marry her n he don't Believe in love n how he don't love her.. Then he was like don't worry when I'm 25 we get married n run away to Scotland he was making me smile.. But I still didn't tell him I love him anyways we end up kissing n feeling up each other but no sex it would of happened if I allowed it.. But I didn't then I dropped home next day I text n said morning any regrets? He called me n said his driving but I shouldn't b silly n I said okay call me later.. Later I called text him to c if his okay he said he was gonna b busy I ain't gonna c him.. Then I though okay because I'm leaving the city 2maro I should just tell him I love him.. So I try telling him by saying you know love he goes forget love it don't exist n how it's all fixed.. Just like movies.. Then I go I'm trying to tell You something stop making it hard he refused to hear me out so I said it to him.. He replayed back saying don't I love his mate n how I hated him for his mate.. And how can I say this to him after 3 years a lot has changed n how his in love with his girl.. Also next day he said we shouldn't talk like we didn't in them 3years because his girl was with him n knows everything n he don't feel good about us being mates so I should leave him alone along them lines.. So I wished him all the best n I left! But do you think I have a chance? He blocked me of his fone drove pass me fast.. But I haven't bugged him after he asked to leave him alone I just left.. But I can see he blocked me n avoids me.. What should I do.. Me n him can relate about everything in our life's..

Hi Metoyou and welcome to Love Forum - Online Relationship Discussion! Hope you enjoy your stay here. ;)

Well, he blocked you, which hurts. There is nothing that will tell what can happen from here, but for now I would think (as sad as it can seem) he doesnt want to be bothered. I know that hurts, I've been there..most of us have. If I were you, (and I was at one point) I would have to try to respect his wish to leave him be. What can you do during this time? Try not to let so many thoughts of him ruin your day or even the possibility of meeting someone new who wants to be in your company. You're worth that, indeed. People at times can send out those harsh, unfeeling messages and here you are feeling so much for him. Truth be told, try to put that energy into something more positive, meaning where you will get back something just as positive. This is easier said, I know..but at least try. You may surprise yourself when you place an unwanted energy into something or someone who is positive! I wish you good luck.