Depression, dating, and dealing with rejection from guys?
I feel like an unattractive loser because at 18 I have never had a real boyfriend or been asked out. I also have had depression (right now it's very mild) since I was a child, and I'm afraid that is why guys don't seem to like me. However, I've tried everything and my depression isn't going away, so does this mean I will never have anyone? My sole relationship lasted one week after I told a guy I liked him-- he asked me out and then broke up with me a week later, but I stopped liking him as soon as he asked me out anyway-- what's wrong with me??. I liked my best friend, only to find out he is dating someone else who is much prettier/happier/more perfect than I. Whenever I see them together I feel awful, but guilty for not being happy for them. I am actually quite bubbly and appear happy on the surface, and I am not socially awkward and have plenty of friends. I am actually quite popular, and I'm a nice person. I'm neither ugly nor beautiful; I'm average. Is there anything I can do to get a boyfriend or do you have any kind words that would put my life into perspective? Finally, I asked this guy out recently but I don't know how to clarify that I want it to be a date and not just a hangout between friends. Do you have any advice on how to do that without being too awkward?
Thank you so so much for reading this post and any comments are greatly appreciated!
Love, Leila