Girlfriend dumped me, then wrote a text 12 hours later
Hello, this is my initial post.
First of all, I am 24 and she's 18. We've been together since last October. We have a lot of chemistry and like each other. Before me, she had only kissed some other guys. Now with we have pretty much done everything except sex, but we've been naked and slept together several times, etc.
Yesterday, I arrived to her house at midnight and we were in her bedroom having oral sex, cuddling and talking until 5am. Since december I know she's intersted in an ex boyfriend who constantly talks to her and they see each other regularly at college. She isn't over him but she told me she loved me and I'm sure she's not lying. Thing is, she's confused and can't decide. At 5am yesterday, she told me she was visited by her ex boyfriend before I came. They went for a walk to the park. He tried to kiss her three times but she refused. She told me that she is confused and that prefers to be alone, but that she loves me. Then we broke up; however, we still kissed and had a very romantic moment as a farewell.
Obviously I've been depressed all day. I planned to start the No Contact Rule, but today at 6pm I received the following message from her:
"I phoned you in at 10am in the morning but your cell phone was not working. I'm very sorry, you don't realize how much I love you. I know I'm not doing the right thing. Do you remember I told you I had never cried for a guy before? Well, today I've been crying since the morning everytime I remember what I did [dump me]. I remember the times we went to the beach, to your house, to my room, to that restaurant, to the bookstore, when we went to the cinema. All time times you whatsapped and how I like to receive your messages, how I like to hug you and kiss you. Now I think that, as well as you returned me our photographs, you must have thrown away the letter I gave you and it makes me sad. On the other side, I realized that for a good while I prefer to be alone or at least not involved in nothing serious. But, even knowing this, if someday you have nothing to do and you want to go out with me, I'll be very happy. If not, please don't ignore me or disappear because I can't handle it. I will always thanks you for telling me I'm beautiful and for everything you've done for me. I will always remember the first time you told you love me. To know you is the best thing that has happened to me in recent times".
How the **** should I react to something like that?
She dumped and apparently regrets it (I really think she's always been honest), but still prefers to stay alone.
I will reply with a short text. Then start the No Contact Rule.
Suggestions?
Thanks.
