Love and Lies? What do i do :(
Suffering from PTSD and Major depression as a result of an assault I became emotionally unstable. At the time I sought comfort in a boy I met in college, Now after treatment I am getting much better and am starting tobecome more emotionally independent, Before I leaned on this boy for absolutely everything. As I got better I began to drift away. I noticed that his behavior was very immature and that there was just not the same connection I presumed there used to be. We both began t0 lack trust but would still stay with one another in an attempt to revive the passion and love we had for one another before. We assumed that distances between us (because now we live in different states) is the reason for our lack of companionship. Especially since when we would meet our anger and annoyance would be dissolved and we would reunite as old times. See we always enjoyed one anothers company and both find happiness in one another that we fail to find elsewhere.
However I realized that being with him was not making me happy. I began arguing a lot about probs. When he sensed me moving away he said how the wound he received from a pellet gun had become severely infected. I stayed because I cared about him hiding my annoyance because of some unresolved issues between us. I thought to clear the air once he was released from the hospital. However, another argument occured and he then diffused the argument by saying how he may be dying because the infection was spreading uncontrollably. He said how the antibiotics were not working and that he may have sepsis. I cried so much and was full of tremendous greif. .
The next two days his demeanor did not reflect that of a dying man so I asked him to send me a picture of him hooked to his IV as proof. He sent me a picture and it seemed odd. So I scanned it with a program only to discover he photoshoped his face into the body of another patient hooked to IVs. I confronted him and said how I planed on coming down there with one of my paramedic friends to further inquire. He agreed but a few minutes later said how I was not to bring my friend and if I did he would consider that we broke up. I questioned why and he said because it would seem as if he was not there for his girl friend.
I reply 'ok. As you wish/' and next thing you know he deactivates his email and fb and phone leaving me no way to contact him. What does this mean"
Is he trying to make me miss him and come back to him Do I reach out to him It seems like he is lying because he did not defend himself when I accused him of photoshopping. WHY would he be enraged I was bringing my friend with me"
This friend is a guy and a month ago when I tried breaking up with my bf I mentioned how my friend the paramedic was so much better thus proving how there were better guys out there. So could it be he is jealous I am just confused
Truth is I still miss him and the good times. Will he contact me again? It has been 3 days so far and he is MIA
