We dated for about 9 months assuming we did not break up now. He is 19 and I am 21. I felt something special with him i still do not know what it was. I lost my virginity to him because it just felt right. However he was immature. See I was dealing with things ( an assault that happened a year ago at the time) since I had not gotten proper treatent right after the anniversary of the assault really affected my mental state. He was supportive at first but then somewhere along the way it became too much and he lost empathy. He just did not understand my condition.
Anyways I continued treatment and moved back home ( we were living together). At home our arguments grew because of well me. I craved attention. He was my distraction from the pain and depression. He was the only thing tht kept me alive. I was suffocating him.
But as I got better I began becoming more independent. I didn't need him to be happy. His behavior did not affect my mood. I began to LIVE again. However, he saw that I was moving away from him noticing the maturity he lacked. He did mention how at times he felt inferior to me once but I think that feeling went away when I was undergoing treatment. However it might have returned when I began to get better. I do not know
We had some unresolved problems at the time that I wanted to bring up but When he sensed me moving away he said how the wound he received from a pellet gun had become severely infected. I thought to clear the air once he was released from the hospital. However, another argument occured and he then diffused the argument by saying how he may be dying because the infection was spreading uncontrollably. He said how the antibiotics were not working and that he may have sepsis. I cried so much and was full of tremendous grief. .
The next two days his demeanor did not reflect that of a dying man so I asked him to send me a picture of him hooked to his IV as proof. He sent me a picture and it seemed odd. So I scanned it with a program only to discover he photoshoped his face into the body of another patient hooked to IVs. I confronted him and said how I planed on coming down there with one of my paramedic friends to further inquire. He agreed but a few minutes later said how I was not to bring my friend and if I did he would consider that we broke up. I questioned why and he said because it would seem as if he was not there for his girl friend.
I reply 'ok. As you wish/' and next thing you know he deactivates his email and fb and phone leaving me no way to contact him. I am guessing this is because he is ashamed?
It has almost been 2 weeks now and he has not contacted me. My question is do you think he will ever contact me again? To try to clear the air? To defend himself? yes I know he is not worth my time but I would just like to hear what you guys think.
Is he doing this so he can manipulate me so I can miss him and go back to him?
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he went through so much trouble to lie to me to keep me
