In a relationship & in love with someone I haven't seen for a year, HELP
At first I thought it was a phase but it's been 4 months now and it's slowly driving me crazy. So here it goes, I'm in a relationship with A (Male 22) who I met in April 2013, however before I got together with A I came across S (Male 20) who lives around the corner from me, now me and S became close very quickly and were really good friends. We had a great bond however over time we fell for each other, we were seeing one another yet he didn't want a serious relationship so I cut him off and we ended on really BAD terms, I deleted his number and lost contact with him completely. So me and A met online in April and after talking every day for a month we met up (as friends) yet hit it off straight away, we had a great connection, the conversation would always be flowing and there was never a dull moment between us, we could also relate on personal issues and were very career motivated and passionate about the same things. Begining of June 2013 we began our relationship, it was a bit soon but it felt right and we both wanted to go ahead with it, we were going with the flow. During this period I had no contact with S whatsoever. However in October 2013 I was involved in a car crash, my skull cracked open and I suffered from memory loss for about 5/6 days. I was in a coma for just over 24 hours yet when I awoke from it I did not recognise any of my family that were around my bed and had no recollection of what happened beforehand. Yet according to doctors and my family I was calling out for S and asking for S when I awoke from the coma. A month later in November 2013 after I had finally recovered and was back at work, I saw S at the train station. We didn't talk. Yet ever since awaking from the coma last year I haven't been able to stop thinking about S, I've even gone on a break from my relationship and had time to myself to breath how that hasn't helped whatsoever. I miss him yet I have no way of getting in contact with him whatsoever. I know where he lives yet I'm not aware of the exact door number. I don't want to stalk him outside of his house every day cause that would be completely strange and also a waste of time. I don't know what I wish to seek if I do get in contact with him. All I know is that I need to see or speak to him before it drives me insane. Some of you reading are probably thinking I'm a loner I need a hobby or just weird, however I work full time live a normal daily life but because of this haven't been able to focus on my daily activities. I'm looking to end my current relationship, not for S but because I've been through a lot of pain and let down with A, he's hurt me and done some unforgivable things. Anyway this post is irrelevant but I'm sure someone's been in a similar sitaution. And I really need advice on what to do next. I've tried forgetting S but it's truly impossible. Anyway if anyone has been reading this thanks
