Cheated on my boyfriend & I don't feel guilty..
Hey there,
I have been with my boyfriend for 4.5 years. When we first started dating, we had sex regularly and we were obviously both very affectionate because it was all fresh and new. I'm not a dumb girl - I know sparks fade a little after being together for so long. But when I found out my boyfriend was molested at a young age almost 2 years into our relationship, it made more sense to me as to why he wasn't interested in having sex as often and wasn't as affectionate as other men I have dated. I know comparing him to other men is not right, but he really doesn't have the sex drive or overall outlook on sex that most men do. We've talked about it many times together and why he never engages in sexual acts or affection and I try to understand, but its so hard on me :( Especially because our sex used to be so great in the beginning..
At this point, I dont know what to do. We've tried to work on things but eventually it goes back to the norm and we fight all over again about the issue at hand. Its just a vicious cycle and I feel were both too young to be dealing with this. We should have a healthy and happy sex life, but I just feel so torn. I love my boyfriend but I feel as though Im falling OUT of love.
I have been cheating these past few months. I feel guilty, but I dont regret it.. I feel like the only reason I've done this is because he never shows me any love or affection. I feel like Im living with a friend :( Anyone been in a situation like this before or have any advice? I'd appreciate it if you shared what you did in your experience..
Sorry for such a long post. Thanks guys!