I don't know if it was the right thing to do
I broke up with my boyfriend almost one year ago, but we kept hanging out acting as if we were on a relationship. I love how we are together but through this year I kept thinking about different reasons why I shouldn't be with him, I'm so confused, I don't know how I feel about him. There are days in which I feel I really want to be with him, and other days in which I'm very indifferent with him, I also need to come clean and say I like a guy I recently met at school.
In the last weeks I barely saw my ex boyfriend because we were busy with school and work, I thought there was no reason to have a relationship with someone I saw one or two days in a month, and that I should meet new people.
Yesterday I couldn't stand it anymore and I broke up with him for real. Now I feel terrible, I miss him so much and I don't know what's wrong with me. I honestly don't know how I feel about him. We had a beautiful 3 years relationship and I messed it up. I really love being with him, we have so much fun together, he treats me really nice, he loves me and I don't want to hurt him. But if I really love him, why do I have so many doubts? why do I like other guys?
I didn't want to get back with him and feel trapped in a relationship with so many doubts again and thats why I broke up with him, but I'm not sure that was the right thing to do.
Please don't judge me, I need an advice.