am I turning into my father??
my dad is an alcoholic. It runs in my family. I am scared I will one day end up like him. I drink once a week at home usually. My partner rarely drinks but I will get drunk alone while he goes to bed occasionally. I never drink two days in a row and sometimes I can go months without drinking but when I do drink it is usually purely because I want to get drunk.
It helps me sleep.. I have always had anxiety and think too much and find it hard to sleep most nights so alcohol does help me unwind, relax and sleep properly occasionally.
I am a v nice drunk. loving and affectionate (not like my dad) and just enjoy good conversation, music and dancing when I drink.
My question is how much is too much? when do I know for sure if I have a problem. How can I prevent becoming an alcho and just drink sociably.
I went 9 months without alcohol during pregnancy and never touched a drop. I do enjoy a few glasses of wine now though and like getting drunk sometimes to help me get a good night sleep but always regret it when I wake up groggy and tired. Sometimes I feel ashamed of being drunk even though I didn't do anything bad
Is this just because alcohol is a bad thing in my mind due to my dads dependancy?? or is it a warning sign that I am becoming like him?
I love him. Hes great in a lot of ways but his addiction has caused a lot of pain and I never want to put my baby through anything like that.
However I don't want to give up alcohol completely as I do enjoy it sometimes and I don't feel like its affecting anything or anyone right now. I am just scared coz it runs in my family