Flying around the world for THAT guy. Stupid?
I'm from Europe and spent Jan and Feb in NY for work. Met a guy from South America and it kind of clicked so we spent the entire 2 months going out, sleepovers, cooking together, playing playstation, movies, snowboarding, he showed me the city and he introduced me to his friends. It felt pretty intense although we knew from the beginning that I would leave in Feb and he would leave end of May (OK, we thought I would go to NY in April for business again which never happened though). After I left, we kept in touch. Sometimes I forced myself not to text him, but then max. after a week he started to text again..
End of June I will move to Cali as I accepted a job offer in the US. Asked him if I should stop at his home town on my way there. He said yes and I booked the flight. Right after my arrival I will go to a wedding where I will be his plus 1 (he is the best man). It will be an intimate ceremony with very few people. So he is taking me to friends in his hometown.
Thing is: I want to think that this means something. But I still feel that he is totally (!) out of my league and I am not sure if I am only being a stupid, naive girl right now. I fell in love with him - obviously - and tried to escape but the feeling does not go away. I never told him as I think such strong words have to be told in person and I did not want to rush into anything, but he does know that I like him a lot. He also told me that he likes me and that I am smart, adorable and have a hot ass ;o)
My last relationship lasted for almost 8 years and although I was in love with my ex for many years, it never felt like this. I never felt so much respect and admiration for someone. I mean, he is totally hot, but this becomes so irrelevant as he is so much more.
So what is this? Am I stupid and naive? What if he only likes the fun? I am terrified.