I meant downhill as in an easy run (as in skiing / walking / riding a bike) as opposed to all being uphill which is a hell of a lot harder to do :)
Point being I'm starting to find it a lot lot easier now it's been over two months and I still miss her sometimes but I've got to the point where I know I'm better not being with her than I will ever be being back with her
Way too many issues for me and way too selfish and self-centred and I'm done dating an alcoholic, it's just way too draining
And the fact I'm actually happy that I'm not getting any contact from her anymore pretty much sums up how I feel