Thanks everyone for your advice! Every time I think of this other man..which by the way, someone kept using the word "boyfriend"..he is NOT my boyfriend. But anyway, every time I think of this other man, I'm just going to get a mental image of my kids and know that is not the right time. Someday though, they will know the truth and know what I went through for them and I hope they will honor me for my decision to have stayed with their father for the time that I did, regardless of what he did and they will know it was all for them. Also, I hope when they are old enough to understand, they will want what is best for me like I always want what is best for them and honor my decision if I decide to leave my husband for my own happiness.