BLu - i was thinking similarly to you with my break up. But i realised that there was no chance of a future together with her if i didnt take some control. As i saw on this site its not nice guys that finish last its the insecure ones. No girl wants an insecure doormat.
My opinion is that she is most probably playing you, but it could also be just that she is having fun for now and will come back to you. the thing is that either way you need to end it & move on (chase and withdraw). in a couple of months contact her and say how great things are going for you (even if they arent - be up beat). See where that takes you. You have compromised your principles, placed her on pedestal (i think at least) and isnt it tearing you up inside wondering if she is with another guy at this exact moment feeling for him what she doesnt for you.
One of your biggest problems with a future with her is that she lied to you. Over and over. It is theoretically possible to get over that, but realistically 99.99% unlikely, try see it for what it is coz if you are anything like me – you are having one of the worst mind****s known. Cut communication, say you need to do this for yourself, sont contact her and say to her that its over, be a bit angry (don’t shout – just tell her she has been dishonest and immature) saying you have become a doormat and it stops here.
You need to regain the dignity you have lost. And you are strong enough bud, you just need to say the words to her. Its going to be hard, that companionship lost, but do all the cliched breakup activities. Meet new people, gym, work harder, go sky diving, hike anything to keep your mind off it. Stay away from the song ‘breakeven’ ‘the script’. It’s a killer for me to listen to.
