oh, here I may miss one important thing. As I said before, I was quite spoiled before and from a good family, get everything that I want. Lots of boys like me, from school or work. They all like me because I'm sensitive, sweet and naive (which my bf likes also but really hates sometimes, i mean being naive). I was surrounded by boys but I never paid any attention to them because I don't like boys that are after girls all the time. They sent me flowers that I just threw away or refused all dinner invitations. He knew all of these, because he used to be there. We used to work together, he saw how those male employees treated me everyday. But he was different from the very beginning. He always gave me a cold face, yelled at me sometimes, he was the first guy that treated me like that. But I was attracted to him. And then fell for him. I only had two boyfriends before him. And I kept myself like a piece of clean white paper. The furthest place we went to is kiss (even without tongue). He knew that too of course. So is it maybe the reason? That he may think once he tells me he loves me, he cannot control anymore or I will not love him anymore because he will become as normal as other guys?