Right, well I've told her that I'm not about to get married any time soon. Sometimes I feel like she sees marriage as this fantasy vacation away from life. We have talked about what she wants a lot. She has absolutely no interest in working, wants like 5 kids, and a big house she never has to leave. I think its healthy to dream, but shouldn't she be interested in what the relationship is now rather than what she wants it to look like? I mean, she acts like she wants to be around me, and it was kind of like that in the beginning. Then I got her a puppy for her birthday, which was nice, but I noticed that she paid less and less attention to me. I became jealous of a damn dog. Its like that's all she ever needed. I wonder if I gave her a baby the same would happen.
I've been contemplating a break up for a while, I'm just tired of being pushed away. I'm just not happy any more. What's kept be on really was how cool her family members are, and I hate having to kill all contact with them. There would be no friendship if I broke up with her, she deals in absolutes, like a freaking sith. I'll just be another one of her past asshole boyfriends I guess.