Originally Posted by Stillinlove
Ya wanna know what got me going again after all of the shit i went through? Its stupid and im pathetic i guess. Doesnt seem that way to me, but im not the most normal person, so who knows? Anyway, one day i was hurting really bad inside for the person i love, and i was getting pretty violent with everyone, and i went for a drive. I was hoping that id wreck, heh. Then for whatever reason it dawned on me, what would she be thinking if she saw me right now? If she saw what ive done, and what ive become? As stupid as it sounds, for her sake i decided to become a better person, and forget death, forget the pain, its still there, but i dont let it consume my life. At this point a cop pulls me over, i get home and the lights are off, and only bills i cant pay in the mail. But in the end, I was finally smiling again.