well apparently she got like a day after pill of some sort and its over now....i have mixed feelings about it so i wont comment, except that regardless of the truth, i made a grave at an old torn down park, buried a note and a picture of me and the ex"
day 5 is hard...leaving Phase 1 to Phase 2, where I was happy being angry with her and glad she is gone....and was nice seeing her text and calls saying she misses me...id chuckle and think to myself how dumb she was to f this up.. and now phase two where she no longer text me...her myspace says "freedom and happy." and i begin to miss the text. I will sluggish and ambitions are lowering...i have soo much to do before my Motorcycle Race this weekend and even the fun work i used to do prepping seems long and tedious...The typical breakup stuff occcurs, i hurry to my car after work like i usually do to see her off to work, but realize im at home sitting on the couch...i remember i left my phone on the kitchen sink after an hour and run back to see no ones called...the ring i once wore for her is now off, and an indention of where it used to be is there. typically bullshit
as i drive to work today and pass her place, i see an unknown SUV with ghetto rims on it outfront with hers....guess someone spent the night.
...been trying to stay busy "physically" but my minds still running a million miles...the crystal clear image of her face still exist in my mind.
Last text i got, "will you please send me the resume you made for me? ive decided im quiting my job and going back to school like we always talked about but want to find a temp day job"
the thought that runs through my head..."be nice, be the better person and send her resume" which always trails "f this b*tch, ive been bitching about how her night job is killing our relationship for 1 year, and suffered fighting over it, and now 4 days after we break up, shes has an epiphany, which i can only assume is because something in her life has motivated her, and not me..."